- Kathleen Henderson Staudt
- I work as a teacher, poet and spiritual director at a number of institutions in the DC area. My teaching focuses in various ways on writing, poetry, Spirituality and Christian vocation and ministry - especially from the point of view of the laity. I also offer classes and retreats encouraging people to explore their inner lives, engage their creativity and reflect on their beliefs about God, vocation, and how we can discern and pursue new ways to transform our broken world. I enjoy speaking of faith in the secular academy as well as reminding those preparing for ministry in the Church that our primary purpose is to love and serve the world beyond the church's doors. I love helping people to grow in faith and to find their own voices, and I also love encouraging them to use their minds. I see no contradiction between these impulses, believing as I do that faith, reason and creativity work together.
Sunday, October 7, 2018
The Gift of Water - A Meditation
Also on the "Baptized for Life" website in "Kathy's Corner"
The Gift of Water: Meditations on a Barrier Island
Most summers at the end of August – so far just on the edge of hurricane season though sometimes we’ve come close – we have spent a week on the northern end of the Outer Banks in North Carolina. This year we had a house right on the ocean and so I awoke every morning just before sunrise to a brightening horizon and the sound of waves. The rhythm of my days there became a meditation on the gift of water, here the salt water of the open Atlantic Ocean, a primal source of life, and the brackish water of Currituck Sound, less than a mile away on the other side of the island. The daily rhythm of my mornings became a way of prayer, surrounded on all sides by the water that gives life and can also overwhelm life. An account of my morning practice may help others share in the embodied experience of what the waters of Baptism might mean, an insight that that slowly dawned on me over the course of the week.
I awoke each day just before sunrise, on a week when the ocean was smooth, and the waves rolled with a steady, present rhythm. I thought of the mystics who speak of the “ocean of God’s love” with its strong currents and waves, and its nourishing, refreshing waters. Watching the sun emerge each morning, always, somehow, a surprise just after the early dawn gloom, reminded me of that Baptism prayer: “We thank you, Almighty God, for the gift of water: Over it the Holy Spirit moved in the beginning of creation” (BCP 306).
After watching the show, and celebrating the arrival of another day of clear, bright beach light at the sea, I would set out, each morning, for the sound, on the other side of the island but less than mile away. It is hot on the Outer Banks in August, even early in the day, so I filled my water bottle before I went with cold ice water, and as I walked, and sipped, I was grateful for the water that sustains and refreshes my life.
Fulfilling some kind of stereotype (I know, I know), I would stop on my way at the bakery and pick up a paper copy of the New York Times, a bagel and a double espresso). With these I walked to the sound and settled on a bench, along a boardwalk which the town has created in an effort to preserve the wetlands on the sound. And the wetlands, indeed, are growing more dense and rich every year, together with a narrow but thick and deeply green fringe of maritime forest.
Wetlands are a powerful symbol for me: that watery place where grasses and marsh flowers and reeds put down deep roots, filtering impurities out of the water and harbouring concentrated populations of new life: Crabs, herons, all kinds of tiny fish and insects live in this place and provide food, and the flowers draw butterflies and other pollinators – it is a place teeming with often invisible life, rooted in the water. Fallen trees, probably downed in hurricanes and floods, also provide sources of nutrients for the wetlands and so it is a place where the cycle of death into new life is visible. And I would recall some words about the water of Baptism: In it we are buried with Christ in his death. By it we share in his resurrection. Through it we are reborn by the Holy Spirit. (BCP 306).
My time at the sound is a paradoxically incarnate time: I enjoy my freshly made breakfast, and under a loblolly pine tree, often in the company of a huge and noisy osprey who perches there most mornings, I alternately sit and sip and soak in the green life surrounding me, and read my newspaper (I buy the paper version to keep me off my phone!) And as I read I am praying for the broken world out beyond this island, surrounded as I am by images of refreshment and life – and remembering, too (as came true several weeks later this year) that this is a place that is also often hit by hurricanes and violent ocean storms. The wetlands, growing denser every year, provide a screen for the mainland when storms sweep in, but the island itself has a history of being both battered and resilient. What I take in each morning, moving from sunrise over the ocean to resting by the wetlands, is the constancy of a life surrounded and nourished by the holiness of water -- a baptismal experience that is ultimately beyond words and yet gives me “muscle memory” to take home, about what it means to be “Baptized for Life.”